Still in the bad mood today..rasa mcm nk escape je...tapi mcm mana da tanggungjawab...kena la pikul kan...malam semalam tetido masa tgk TV..saya tersedar dlm kul 2..tu pn sbb dengar bising2..ropenya suara tv yang saya tak tutup ...hmm..bangun tutup TV..sambung tido balik..rasa mcm nk tido je...xnk bangun2...penat..penat dengan dunia yg entah ke mana...dulu saya rasa saya da ada direction untuk masa depan saya..tp sekarang ni rasa mcm kelam...saya da x fokus da...mana la semangat saya yang da hilang tu...sekarang rasa duk sorg2 je bagus...xnk jumpa semua org..or just be with my family pn da cukup...no one else..tapi...saya tahu xle ikut perasaan sangat...dan rasa maybe ni la org kata symptom demoralize by other...entah..i know i need to get back on track...focus...maybe i should try something new..out of my comfort zone..i need to do better or the best...but how...which direction should i go?how i want to start it over again?i know all of the answer are inside me...but i just can let it out...damn...i cant be like this.. disappointing all of the people around me..i need to get up from my sleep and stay focus...
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/rascal-flatts-lyrics/what-hurts-the-most-lyrics.html]
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do
Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo
grr....xde mood ari ni..tensen sesangat....1 half year but still nothing to be proud of...shame on me..and damn on ...and like other people said, kalau mood x baik masak pn x sedap..grr...tambah tensen lagi....enough talking!!i mean writing..ahh......................sesangat tensen........
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
I loved the most
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/jar-of-hearts-lyrics-christina-perri.html ]
Firefly out
Hai hai...pagi ni kinda sleepy sikit..sbb last night saya xle tido...saya punye la ngantuk masa otw nk blik kerja so berangan nak balik cepat lepas tu nk g bayar duit lereta jap..sekali meeting saya start lambat n blik pn lmbt x lmbt sgt la...lepas g bayar duit kereta(bank yg jauh..tensen)...saya pn blik rumah..ingat nk masak la kan..kesian housemate saya da 2 hari saya x masak.. smlm saya g rumah makcik kt Pasir Gudang hantar barang.nk kul 10 lebih la baru sampai rumah...pagi smlm lak bangun awal sbb konon2 nk g keje awal n nk blik awal(nk p bayar duit kereta)..sampai rumah kul 8 lebih, housemate ajak g mkn yong tau foo...saya pn join la sekali sbb perut pn mmg lapar kan..sampai rumah kul 10...saya tengok cerita kt TV2 ni...mcm best...tak ingat tajuk dia...abes cerita pn da kul 12...saya bangun mandi..lepas mand tu..mata saya terus segar bugar...xle nk tido lansung...on9 la sekejap...tp line mmg mcm lembap tahap kura2 kan...sedar2 tengok jam da pukul 2 pagi..erk?mata saya xle tido..saya punye pikir kenapa xle tido ni..selalu senang je...lepas tu teringat kt ofis td, saya ada minum air kopi...agaknya,ni la sbb saya xle tido...adush..so sekarang mcm weng2..ikut hati nk time off je pagi..tp saya ada meeting kul 9 kang..hu...so, buat2 la bertabah ye cik Zuritah...jgn berangan awak tu study lagi...kalau study dulu boleh la kan nk main ponteng2..hu...alamak terkantoi kaki ponteng...he..
Oklah firefly out..bos da bg email suh wat keje...hu..
Tengok x cerekarama kat TV3 hari sabtu lepas? apa ek tajuk dia...Kisah cinta si bunga tembam kot kalau x silap..lems.. lak pikir..kelmarin masa saya tengah tgk cerita ni...saya pn terpikir..selalu je dalam drama or filem tak kirala melayu ke ong putih ke thailand ke mexico ke korea ke...semua la...heroin dia mesti either x cantik or miskin hina..hero lak selalu segak bergaya dan kaya raya..and mesti drg jatuh cinta...siap ada org rebut2 lagi...tapi tu semua dalam drama n filem..tp realiti?ada ke org lelaki yg kaya raya dan hensem bergaya pandang kt perempuan yg kurang cantik mcm kitorang ni? selalunya pandangan luaran lagi penting dari dalaman...betul x?depan ckp lain belakang ckp lain...tak tahu la ni persepsi saya je kan..almaklumlah..saya akui pemikiran saya ni memang sempit !!tapi realiti x mungkin mcm drama..u know the most thing that makes me laugh...saya perasan la kan...banyak drama2 skang guna dialog ni.."mcm hidup dlm drama"or "hidup kita x sama mcm drama"kira mcm tu la...x ingat la dialog2 yg sebetul2 nyekan..saya bkn penulis skrip pun...kiranya pelakon dalam drama tu ckp as dialog in their drama, hidup drg x mcm drama..apakah?..da mmg ko tengah berlakon dlm drama kan...so, buang la dialog tu...sbb tersangat la poyo bunyinye...guna ayat2 biasa sudeh...yg penting isinya org paham...
sebenarnye tengah bad mood..org lain yg kena marah...hmm..cegini la gamaknye...
oklah firefly out
Wa seriously penat gile..hmm...sekejap je rasa cuti...bosan betul la...now da kt gelang patah again..hu...I really wish nk stay kt rumah je...berdoa yg gelang patah ni dekat je ngan rumah...hu...tensen...ni da mcm duk asrama macam dulu2...bosan!!nk blik rumah pn kena pikir mcm2...grrrrrrrr...tadi jalan mcm slow sikit..saya bertolak kul 1.30 sampai nk dekat kul 5 lebih...selalu 3 jam setengah da sampai..kereta banyak...cuti kan, so maybe drg ramai blik kampung mcm saya...tu yang menambahkan penat tu...tadi ckp ngan mak...suruh angah cari keje, lepas tu saya nk berhenti keje..he..leh x?hahaha..mak gelak je..along ngan abg ipar saya pn gelak je...mak ckp sape nk bayarkan duit kereta...hu..lupa lak da ada Princess 1...he...apada...erk..penat betul rasanya...mak bekalkan lauk tadi,baru panaskan, rasa mcm x lalu lak nk mkn sbb penat..tapi badan mcm da menggigil..hu..jap lagi mkn sikit la..kesian mak masak penat2..dia da la demam..saya da ckp x payah masak..dia nk masak gak...saya bangun pagi tadi, dia da siap masak lepas tu halau saya balik GP cepat2..hu...mcm ni la setiap kali balik KL..sampai je ari nak blik GP mesti kena halau ye...he...mak saya risau x bg blik mlm2...dia kata saya rabun x nmpak...he...alasan x leh blah...kalau saya balik KL ari jumaat after abes kerja pn dia membebel...dia kalau boleh nk g mana2 mesti siang2..x mau mlm2..he..
Ok la..firefly out...
nk kemas bilik yg mcm tempat perbuangan sampah ni ngan nk gosok baju nk g keje esok...hu...penatnye...
hua...tadi check keyword kt nuffnang..saja2 je...tengok bawah ni...
Erk..ada org cari org gila sek?boleh dpt blog saya lak tu...saya pernah tulis pasal org gila sek ke..tak pernah la rasanya...hmm...aneh2x...Seram.....
he..hari ni hujan sepanjang petang...ingat nk ajak kawan saya kuar...x jadila kot..sbb dorang semua mcm busy je...x layan saya call n sms....yela..sape la saya...hu...merajuk..
Firefly out..
happy Labour Day...he...tahun ni da masuk 2 tahun saya sambut hari pekerja ni...he..so apa aktivit korg cuti2 ni?mesti berjalan sakan menghabiskan masa ngan org tersayang kan....saya?x yah tanye la kan..dari smlm duk je melepak kt rumah..mak demam..nk kuar susah sikit...lagipun kan Angah kena babysit Zara kan...so,ktrg duk je la kt rumah...saya plan nk g berjaya time square...ingatkna adik saya balik rumah...sekali dia kata dia ada keje la...so xle blik...next week dia balik terus cuti sem...so paln saya x jadi la...tp xpela..leh gak berehat-rehat kan..tp rehat x rehat sangat la..sbb angah saya tengah membuta...saya kena tengok Zara...hu....okla Zara da nangis...
Firefly out..
Once again HAPPY LABOUR DAY!!!
