Assalamualaikum,

After all ups and downs, I am living my dream now for almost 2 years. I let go my career and currently pursuing my study. Almost at the finish line. So, please pray hard for me. I am feeling a little bit doubt. But whatever happen, I will take it as part of the journey. So that, I can breath easily after this.

https://youtu.be/v4xbVLnUx_A

Breathe-Lee hi

Take a deep breath
Until both sides of your heart get numb
Until it hurts a little
Let out your breath even more
Until you feel
like there’s nothing left inside

It’s alright if you run out of breath
No one will blame you
It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes
Because anyone can do so
Although comforting by saying it’s alright
Are just words

Someone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you

It’s alright if you run out of breath
No one will blame you
It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes
Because anyone can do so
Although comforting by saying it’s alright
Are just words

Someone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you

Even if others think your sigh
Takes out energy and strength
I already know
That you had a day that’s hard enough
To let out even a small sigh
Now don’t think of anything else
Let out a deep sigh
Just let it out like that

Someone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you
You really did a good job

Firefly out

Assalamualaikum,

A year has passed. I have been ignoring my blog for almost 6 months. 😱😱😱😱such a long time kan.

How have you been? I hope you guys have been doing well. As for me, Alhamdullilah, I am progressing and healing I guess? Is that the correct words to express it. who knows.Eventhough I admit, sometime, I mean many few times, I do crumbled inside. 2014 has been so tough for me. So tough that I could not even imagine of going thru life at that moment. I still remember, driving alone in my car, having thought to run down the highway kerb. The sound in my head just could not went away. Feeling lost and suffocated. Astaghfirullah.

The feeling lingers for a long time. They said time will heal. But it tooks so much time. I dont even know whether it will heal.

But life still continue as the usual. Explore new places, meeting new friends and peoples, create new memories. I garthered all of my courage to proceed. Once I thought I was Ok, 2016, I am being thrown on the ground again. Same sound lingers in my head. Head pain, body pain, imsomnia strikes me so bad. That moment, I realized, why am I depending so much on human? I realized that peoples that I encountered here in dunya is just temporarily send to me by Allah. Some come as blessings and some come as lessons. Thats how I spent my 2017. Reflecting and reminiscing my life. Be grateful with what I have.

So today, I am feeling better. Im trying to be better. When the sound come to my mind, I keep reminding myself "Innallahamaana". I wont say I feel compleasent or content with I had in life right now. But, at least I know. I will never be abondon. Not by HIM. Alhamdulillah.

I hope 2018 will brings more love and success to me😊. I will pray hard for u guys too.

Firefly out.

Being alone. I learnt to be independent. I learnt to get up when i fall. I learnt to heal my heart when i get hurt. I learnt to be tough when i feel weak. I learnt to be rational when i get confused.

I learnt, being alone does not mean lonely.
Allah s.w.t is always with me.
Mak and abah blessing is always with me.

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I started having make up bag at the age of 30. Quite late is not it?hahaha..never borther about my face and appearance before..but since i am turning into 30 this year. Something must be change right. I am growing old i guess.
Nothing much in the bag, compact powder silky girl, BB cream Maybeline, eye liner silky girl few lipstick, rexona deadorant, hand lotion and bodyshop perfume. Thats it!
Nothing much right😅😅.

#zufikshortnote

It is spring! It will be fabulous to be in Japan or korea as u can watch sakura blossoms or cherry blossoms. What a dream😅😊. But here i am, spring cleaning. Wondering what should i keep, what should i throw.Many things to be considered. Many peoples to be considered as well.

Seoson by seoson passed. Some major and minor changes happen. As season passed, your youth passed as well. I missed the old time, the only thoughts of having fun, learning to run and learning to fly. But it is all in the passed.

As season passed. I have learned so much. The things and peoples need to be keep. And the things and peoples need to throw. Setting up my priority. Not because of selfish me. But it is becouse of happy me.

#Zufikshortnote

Assalamualaikum..amboi..dah lama x update blog..update terus pasal makanan..nk wat mcm mna cik tah ngan makanan xle terpisah...btw, Salam Ramadhan..pejam celik da 17 hari berpuasa..sekejap je masa berlalu....tahun ke 2 puasa Arwah Mak xde n Tahun ke 9 Arwah Abah xde..hmmm....kosong...Al fatihah..

Ok...enough sad story..ari ni nk share cik tah terlebih rajin buat burger bakar sendiri ok...Alhamdulillah boleh la rasa...walaupun mcm masin sikit..maybe ngan letak cheese kan so dia jd masin sikit..
Resipi cik tah google ke kt internet ada mcm2 versi..tp last2 cik ta wat sesuka ati..hihihi..

Senang je nk wat sebenarnya..

Bahan2

1.daging kisar
2.mixed spice
3.telur 2 biji
4. Oat (sepatutnya serbuk roti tapi cari x jumpa)
5.garam+bahan perasa secukup rasa
6.bawang merah+ bawah putih kisar

Cara2
Campur kan je semua bahan...lpas tu gaul sampai sebati..
Then bulat2kan ikut cita rasa..
Letak dlm peti ais bukan beku tau sekejap..nk bg dia keras sikit so bakar x hancur..
Al kisah umah x de flat pan n dapur arang..cik ta guna kuali je senang..he..asal terbakar..ye dak..
Dah nak masak tu letak je cheese sekaping atas patty tu..ahh..jgn lupa masak roti lak..celet planta sikit...

Hasilnya..

Tada....dah menjejoh nk buka tadi lupa nk snap gambar burger yg da bakar...jadinya gambar patty mentah je la ada..hikhikhik

Okla..firefly out..
Salam ramadhan 17 nuzul quran kareem..